Who am I? A question brought up in my mind almost daily. Which path am i going to take, what life am I going to live? It’s so hard to settle on a single life when your surrounded by hundreds of people living different, but equally captivating lives. Is it possible to live a stable life with a job and home tying you down and also move country’s to experience a different life?
It seems I want to experience countless of different lives while simultaneously not being content with the life I am living. Almost like the fear of choosing one dream will evaporate the chance to experience any other dreams. Fear of making the wrong decision, fear of the unknown. It’s not that I don’t like and appreciate the life I am currently living, as this is what used to be my dream.
I question why I haven’t acted on some of my easily attainable dreams yet. Why haven’t i sky dived or worked my way into being able to hike up the peak of a mountain? I look around at so many people who tell me their dreams, but a year later, they still have the same job, same weekend routine, same unattained dreams. It’s so easy to look at someone else and say, well, just do it! Make that leap of faith!
I made that leap once when I moved to Revelstoke, but it feels as though I had less things holding me to my hometown. Now I’m in college, studying for a 9-5 job when my entire lifes dream job was to have an acreage and train horses for a living. Will this change in career help or hinder my ability to travel? Will it give me the income I need to travel but simultaneously drain me of the time needed to do it? In the end, the knowledge and opportunities I will gain will be beneficial in the long run.
Who am I? There is no answer to that question as I’ll never stay the same person. People change as fast as this earth does, making it hard to keep up with ourselves. There are so many paths i want to walk, maybe choosing the right one isn’t as important as I think it is.
Jaded Roses Rising 